Deadly Memories: Chapter 13

I straddled Eric, who was laying in the bed, bound at his wrists and ankles. I had very kinky and naughty thoughts going through my mind, that I tried to shut out from him, since I knew that Eric could now read my mind.

Eric moaned. “Sookie, please,” he begged, losing control. I could tell that it was taking supreme effort for him not to rip his arms and legs out of the ties that bound him to the bed and not grab me. But he hadn’t begged me enough yet…not enough for my liking. “Sook-ie,” he moaned once again. He opened his eyes, which had been closed before. “Take me,” he pleaded, his eyes meeting mine.

“No,” I replied, shaking my head. “I like this. You always have so much power while I always feel like I don’t. I want to be able to feel powerful for once,” I explained. I wanted him to know what I was feeling, without giving everything away. “I hope you can understand that I need this,” I told him, hoping that he wouldn’t be too mad.

That seemed to make Eric understand me better. He stopped fussing and chose to lay there silently, his body quivering. He closed his eyes and began to enjoy what I was doing to him. Every so often, he’d gasp or exclaim in a harsh whisper, but he stopped trying to get me to stop. That was the most important thing to me.

I think he understood that I felt insignificant and insecure. This way, I would be gaining some of that back. It shook me as I realized that this oh-so-powerful vampire was allowing me to do whatever I wanted with him. He trusted me. It was a humbling feeling that made me want to give him as much pleasure as I was taking from him. It surprised me, because I knew that Eric was a control freak. I had no idea how his actions could arouse me more than I already was. But by his being cooperative (the last word of the day on my calendar that I had read) it made me want him even more than I already did. It was a very scary feeling. I hoped that I wouldn’t mess it up.

I leaned down and gave him a kiss, mostly for appreciation of what he was allowing me to do. He kissed me passionately. His tongue swept in, taking my breath away. I couldn’t breathe, even if I wanted to. I didn’t need to read his mind to know that he wanted to see what I would do. I broke our kiss slowly, as I realized that I could do whatever the hell I wanted.

I took his gracious plenty in my hand and guided him towards my hot, moist center. I slowly lowered myself down on him, inch by inch, taking his huge size inside me. His hips rose up, sliding him in deeper yet. Soon, he was completely inside me, making me gasp.

I rode him, taking him as deep as I could, gyrating my hips, giving us both pleasure. I raised my arms up to sweep up underneath my hair, lifting it up off my shoulders. I gazed down at Eric to see his reaction. He was gazing up at me, with heat in his eyes. He was watching me while I rode him, enjoying the view. His gaze left a blazing trail of heat wherever his eyes gazed.

My nipples puckered, just from his watchful gaze. I reached up and fondled my own breasts, knowing that it would be what Eric wanted. I could see his tongue and fangs, his mouth hanging half open. I knew that he was wishing that he was tasting them at that moment.

“Yeah…play with them,” he encouraged, his voice hoarse with desire.

“Look at me, lover,” I told him, softly, echoing one of his favorite phrases that he would say to me when his memory had been cursed.

His blue eyes met mine, while I began to ride him hard and fast. Soon, I became completely unglued, while I climaxed. Stars burst before my eyes, while my world spun and turned, then I crashed down back to earth. Eric cried out too, as he drove in deep once more before he came, closing his eyes in bliss. I collapsed down on top of him, sweaty and tired.

I was gasping for breath. I listened to his dead, non-beating heart in his chest but I couldn’t hear anything. Surprisingly, his chest began moving up and down, as if he were breathing. I raised my head, to gaze down at him, inquiringly.

He looked at me and stared into my eyes. “If I could breathe, my every breath would be for you,” he explained. He had a softness in his expression that I had never seen before. His eyes shown with an inner light or sparkle.

His words completely undid me. I was speechless. It was a moving sentiment, that brought tears to my eyes. I began to cry. I really had no clue what to say after he said something so sweet like that.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” he asked, with concern. I could see his concerned expression on his face.

“Nothing,” I shook my head. “You just shouldn’t say such sweet words to me. I get choked up,” I explained. It was true. It made me feel both loved and uncomfortable. Eric had always created mixed emotions within me. He was like nobody that I had ever met before.

Eric smiled a quick grin. “Better get used to it,” he replied, matter-of-factly. “I have more where that came from,” he winked at me. I could tell that he was trying to reassure me and tease me at the same time.

I rolled my eyes and laughed. “Is that how come you’re so popular with women?” I wondered, aloud. I was curious. Besides his obvious good looks, he must have picked up a few lines here and there. Not that he needed them, I could imagine that all he’d have to do is snap his fingers and they’d come running to him, if he wanted them to. In fact, the fangbangers that hung around Fangtasia were always trying to catch his attention. I had seen it with my own two eyes. I doubted that they only wanted him because he was a vampire because Eric was way too good-looking. He was Mr. January after all, with the kind of sexy good looks that belonged on the covers of romance novels. I knew that I’d had a few fantasies about him myself, so I couldn’t blame those fangbangers. I had often chose to ignore the pangs in my heart when I was able to witness that kind of thing in the past. I had always felt like he would treat me that same way. That wasn’t something that I wanted to experience. That was partly why I was so shocked that Eric’s feelings were deeper than I had once thought.

Which made me question what the hell he saw in me? Was it my looks? My ability to read minds? My sparkling personality? What?

“It’s many things,” Eric replied, a little disappointed that my thoughts were along those lines, because of course, he had read my mind. “But it doesn’t matter now because we are on the same page, right?” He gazed at me, making sure that we were.

It still didn’t make me forget that he probably never had to work very hard to pick up a woman in his whole thousand-plus years.

“Well, what did you say to me to get me into bed?” I pointed out to him. “I seem to recall that you have tried a number of them.” I teased, grinning back at him. I pushed my insecurities aside.

“You are…different,” he replied. “I tried to use all my charm on you and it still didn’t work,” he grumbled and complained. “I thought I was losing my touch.”

I wanted to laugh. It was so typically Eric. But I had to give him credit, it must’ve taken a lot for him to admit to that kind of thing. “So, what you’re saying is that I was challenging for you because I didn’t give in right away,” I deduced. “Besides, you didn’t lose your touch. Case in point…I’m in bed with you right now.” I smiled at him, reassuring him. “But to be honest, you did make it awfully difficult for me when I was with Bill and Quinn.”

“Not to mention, Alcide,” he added. “You attract admirers like the fae attract vampires,” he replied, with a frown on his face. I could feel him suddenly putting up a wall so that I couldn’t see into his thoughts.

“Are you jealous?” I asked, wondering why he had suddenly blocked me out. I had a funny feeling that he didn’t want me to know. “It’s okay, if you are, I know that my coworkers think you’re hot too,” I offered, knowing that it went both ways.

“I don’t know…maybe,” he replied, shrugging his shoulders. “It’s just reassuring that you weren’t completely immune to me, even though you were with other guys at the time.” He smiled, crookedly. “I haven’t lost my touch after all.”

“No, you haven’t,” I agreed. I wanted him to touch me right now.

I reached over to untie his wrists and ankles, which were still tied to the bed.

“Are you all done?” He wondered, curiously. He watched me, while I undid each tie.

“Yes, you’ve been through enough torture for one night,” I grinned at him.

“Good, then it’s my turn.”

Before I knew what was going to happen, I found myself pinned to the bed with Eric’s body weight. He started tying up my wrists and legs. Yikes. He was going to do the same thing to me, as I had done to him. Yahoo. I licked my lips in anticipation. Yum.

I was suddenly woken up when I heard someone open up the door to the basement. I shook Eric awake, afraid that Dimitri had come to hurt one of us.

“Eric,” I cried in a harsh whisper. “Someone’s coming.”

Eric woke up with a start, his eyes opened, but he just laid there.

“Aren’t you going to confront them?” I asked, scared and worried about the intruder. “It could be Dimitri.”

Eric shook his head. “No, it’s not,” he replied. He slowly sat up in bed and propped his pillow against the headboard as if he didn’t have a care in the world.

Since his eyesight was better than mine, I wondered what he could see in the dark. Before I could say anything more, I heard a familiar voice in the room.

“Hey, Miss Sookie and Mr. Eric,” Bubba greeted us from across the room.

I turned to stare over at him. I could barely make out his figure from the hall light that reflected in the open doorway. “Bubba!” I exclaimed, both happy and relieved to see him there. “What are you doing here?” I asked, curiously. I wondered how he had found us and who had sent him.

“He’s here because I sent for him,” Eric explained, reading my mind. “Pam knew where we were. I told Pam before I left, that if we didn’t return right away, to send Bubba. He’s the only one who would be able to sneak past the Weres at the gate.”

I remembered another time when Bubba had sneaked past Weres at another gate. Eric had been in bed with me at the time too. I was feeling like I was experiencing déjà vu all over again.

“So, we’re leaving now?” I asked, hopefully. I looked at Eric, making sure that we were on the same page.

Eric shook his head. “You are, I’m not.” He replied, but before I could ask him what he meant by that, Eric addressed Bubba. “Take her to Fangtasia,” he instructed. “Use my car. Don’t stop for anyone or anything.”

Bubba nodded his head in understanding. “Okay, boss,” he agreed.

“If you run into any trouble, Sookie, let me know,” Eric looked at me, steadily. I knew that he meant for me to communicate through our bond.

“You’re not coming too?” I asked, instead of acknowledging his request. I felt suddenly alarmed and fearful at the prospect that Eric wasn’t going to be there. That we would be apart for awhile.

Which was a scary thought. Whoa, I already was in this way too deep, I thought to myself.

“No, I’m not,” Eric shook his head. “I need to find out who’s working with Dimitri and to find out what’s going on,” he explained. “You go with Bubba, I don’t want you here in case things go wrong.”

I was disappointed and wanted to stay in case Eric needed my help. I was concerned and worried about him already. “No,” I replied, stubbornly, shaking my head. “I want to stay,” I cried out. Worse case scenarios were already running through my mind. I didn’t want to leave him all alone, without anyone else there to watch his back.

Eric sighed. “You’re not going to be much help to me,” he replied, trying to console me like I was a child. “I’ll be fine. I’ve survived this long…I will do it again.” He stated, as if trying to reassure me. “Besides, now that we’ve worked out a few things, I have more to live for than I ever did before.” He reached out and cupped my cheek, so that I couldn’t look away. “I’ll be fine. You go to Fangtasia, where I know that you will be well-protected. I don’t want to worry about you, while I’m dealing with all of this,” he explained.

I wasn’t happy about this. I couldn’t help but let him feel all of my resentment, anger and frustrations with him. “Fine,” I sighed, knowing that Eric was too stubborn to convince otherwise. “But I’m not happy about this,” I replied, knowing that Eric could tell by how I was thinking and feeling that he already knew it. I wanted him to know for sure.

“I know.”

Eric leaned over and kissed my lips, sweetly. No tongue action, but a sweet kiss that lovers exchanged when they didn’t know how long it would be until they saw each other again. I didn’t want to ruin it, just in case something did happen to him. I wanted him to have nothing but happy memories of me.

Bubba headed back up the stairs to give me some privacy while I got dressed. I found my uniform off in a corner of the room. It was dirty and used, but I didn’t care. The only other thing I could wear was that evening gown that Dimitri had bought me. I wasn’t going to wear that.

Eric watched me dress. He was keeping his mind blocked off from me. Probably because he knew that I wasn’t very happy with him, I thought to myself. I never would’ve have suspected that I would have wanted to stay down here, locked up with him, for longer than I thought necessary, but I did. Damn it, I was going to miss this. It had been like we were away in our own little world. We didn’t get interrupted by anyone or anything, which I knew was going to be a hazard in our relationship. I didn’t want to see this time with him end.

When I was ready to go, I turned once more towards the bed, where Eric lay sprawled underneath the sheets. I had visions of his naked body burned into my brain. Memories flooded me as I recalled touching that naked body. I felt desire rise up within me once again, but pushed them aside.

Eric was right, in a way. We did need to get back to our normal lives and Eric did need to find out what was going on and who was behind all of this. But there was a part of me, who wondered if we would be able to find this kind of peace ever again.

“Come here,” Eric called out to me, from the bed.

His mind was still blocked off from me, but I could tell what he was feeling. He was feeling many of the same things I was. It was good to know that I wasn’t alone.

I sat down on the bed next to him. “Yeah?” I asked, not sure if this was the right thing. God help me, but I didn’t want to leave him.

“Sookie,” he replied. I could tell from the sound in his voice that he didn’t want to say goodbye either.

“Eric,” I replied back, not knowing what to say. Should I tell him how I really feel? Maybe I should. I wouldn’t want him to get killed, not knowing how I really felt about him.

“Sookie, I…” he paused, trying to find the right words to say goodbye. “This is extremely hard for me. I’ve never said this kind of thing before to anyone. Even when I was alive, I didn’t say this kind of thing. I didn’t even feel this way before, but you have changed everything.” He paused once again. I could tell that he was feeling scared and unsure. “But I want you to know…that I…love you,” he exclaimed, as if it were the most shocking and puzzling thing that he’d ever experienced. “I want you to know that, just in case anything happens to me. And try not to worry, I’ve made sure that you’re well taken care of. I don’t want you to be anything other than happy.”

I didn’t know what to say to that. Tears welled up in my eyes and rolled silently down my cheeks. Eric saw them and wiped them off with his fingertips, then put his fingertips into his mouth, tasting the fluids from my body.

“Oh Eric,” I cried softly in response. “I feel the same way too.” I was happy and relieved that I wasn’t the only crazy one and that I wasn’t really alone. I paused, not sure if I should just blurt it out or not but I decided that it didn’t really matter. He needed to hear it and I needed to tell him. “I-I love you too. You’ve made me happier than I’ve ever been. I couldn’t imagine what my life would be like, if not for you.” My tears were running freely down my face now. I couldn’t stop the tide the flowed, it was like a dam had burst. “You make me laugh and you frustrate me too. You make me feel so many things that I don’t know how to explain it all to you.”

I could feel Eric’s mind suddenly open up and I poured the rest of what I feeling into it so that he could fully understand. I was speechless. This was more than I’d ever hoped for. “Try to come back to me, okay?” I asked, fearful of that not happening.

I now fully realized that there was more to our feelings than just our bond. Our true feelings had been there for awhile now. We just needed some privacy and time to get things straightened out. We were just getting started. I didn’t want it to end just yet because I was curious to see what we could do with it. But there was no use. Although, I didn’t like it, I knew that Eric was practical and level headed. If anyone could find out anything, it would be him. That would be better off for us in the long run, wouldn’t it?

“I will move heaven and earth to come back to you,” Eric replied, matter-of-factly. “Trust me, I will,” he vowed.

We kissed again and Bubba chose at that time to interrupt us. “Mr. Eric…Miss Sookie,” he spoke up, excitedly. “We have to go, I hear someone comin’,” he explained.

We slowly broke our kiss. I stood up from the bed and started to walk towards the stairs that led up from the basement. I turned around to look back at Eric on the other side of the room. Our eyes met and held. I was memorizing everything about him. I hoped that I would see him once again, sooner rather than later.

Finally, I walked up the stairs to the hallway, hoping that I would get out of there safely.


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